LIFE'S A GRIND-16

LIFE'S A GRIND-16

Jack Scribe
  
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this...don't.
  
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Chapter 16, DEGREES OF GRADUATION
 
Jeremy fell into the routine of stopping by the club on Tuesdays after 
school to pick up his tip envelopes and deposit the cash in his bank at the 
nearby Merchandise Mart. Memorial Day weekend was approaching 
and Chicago suddenly burped from late winter to summer. 'Speedo 
weather at the beach,' he thought as he pressed the Barecats stage door 
bell, waved at the security camera and waited for the lock to be 
electronically released. 
 
"Hi, Jer," said the office manager's voice from the speaker. A metallic 
buzz indicated that the lock was momentarily released. Jeremy opened 
the door, went directly to the dressing room and retrieved the money 
from his lockbox. He had just finished counting and organizing the bills 
when he heard someone walk into the room.
 
"Hey, buddy. How goes it?"
 
"Oh...hi, Garin. I didn't think you'd be here." Jeremy shoved the 
envelopes into his backpack and walked over to his boss. "Final tests this 
week and then graduation on June 10th." He took the extended hand, 
shook it briefly and continued, "Everything's cool."
 
"Really?" Garin asked with a raised eyebrow. "Seriously, between losing 
your mom and those assholes attacking you all within two weeks - is it 
really cool?" He looked into Jeremy's eyes and gently stroked the 
younger man's arm.
 
"Well...I'm doing mostly okay." Jeremy frowned and looked at the floor. 
"I keep telling myself that Mom's death was unexpected but probably a 
blessing - she had a really crummy quality of life. As far as the attack is 
concerned, my classmates have really been supportive. I guess I was 
outed in a pretty dramatic fashion but it doesn't seem to bother anyone." 
Jeremy had discussed his sexual orientation with Garin shortly after 
becoming a regular in the Barecats cast.
 
"Sounds like 'mostly okay' is getting closer to reality, Jer." Garin's look 
expressed concern.
 
"I...end up crying sometimes when I'm alone - without any warning. And, 
I've had some pretty rough nights waking up in a sweat, recalling that 
afternoon. But it's getting better and Naomi's become more of a close 
friend than simply a sister. The principal at school set me up with a 
psychological counselor and the sessions seem to be helping."
 
"Stick with the counseling...it can't hurt. I got professional guidance when 
my parents divorced and Mom got custody of me. My father didn't seem 
interested in spending time with me any more and it really bummed me 
out...big time. I was just a little younger than you are now."
 
"It musta worked cuz you don't seem to mind talking about it. I plan on 
seeing the guy through the summer. The school's paying for it and I think I 
see a light at the end of the tunnel." 
 
"Just make sure the light's not the headlight of a train," Garin threw out, 
with a smile that quickly faded. "Please excuse the lame joke."
 
"Joke noted and excused. I do appreciate you looking out for me, too. 
The only thing that concerns me, though, is the crap of having to be a 
witness at the trial. I'm not looking forward to that or the publicity."
 
"Understand, completely. If you're going over to the bank at the Mart, 
want some company?  We can talk while we walk. I've got some ideas 
on this trial and some other stuff I want to share with you."
 
"I'll never object to your advice, your company or you being my personal 
guard when I take the loot to the bank. I'm ready." Jeremy smiled as he 
gestured to Garin to lead the way out of the dressing room.  
 
He turned off the lights and joined Garin crossing the backstage to the 
exit. Jeremy hurried a few steps ahead, opened the stage door with a firm 
push on the crash bar and held it for his boss. They headed out to 
Hubbard Street and turned west in the direction of the behemoth 
landmark Merchandise Mart.
 
"How's the tip money doing?" Garin asked. "We really haven't talked 
much since you joined us but I notice that the audiences seem to really 
get turned on during your routines." 
 
"The tips have been great. The money will take care of all my bills and 
give me a chance to save something for my old age."
 
"Old age? Like...when you're 30?" Garin said with a chuckle.
 
"Come on, you know what I mean. Maybe 35." Jeremy stuck out his 
tongue and continued,  "This is a super job and I really thank you for the 
opportunity. Unless I'm told otherwise, I plan on being here...at least 
through college. As a bonus, I've also made some great friends."
 
"Starting with Charlie Barnett? Not snooping, you understand."
 
"Guess nothing gets by you, does it?" Jeremy snickered as they turned 
south on Wells Street. "We've become, as they say, an item...a serious 
item."
 
"As I told you, I have no problem with anyone dealing from that deck 
and Charlie is a great guy...a real keeper. The two of you make a terrific 
couple. Ah, getting back to what we were discussing in the dressing 
room, I think I've got a plan that will keep everything concerning the 
attack very low key."
 
"Any help would be appreciated." Jeremy looked at Garin when they 
stopped before crossing Kinzie Street. His admiration and respect for his 
boss had continued to grow since that first dinner last December.
 
"In a way, what I'm going to propose is a little self-serving. I don't want 
the company to get negative publicity, and besides that, I want to spare 
you any embarrassment. I'd like my lawyer to contact the lawyer for the 
two boys and strongly urge him to change their pleas to 'guilty' if they can 
work out an agreement on reduced charges. That should cut down the 
long waiting time for a trial and avoid any interest by the press."
 
"Reduced?" Jeremy asked as they crossed the street and walked up the 
incline.
 
"I'm told the prosecutors have a lot of leeway, and if it can guarantee a 
conviction they will probably bundle everything under the hate crimes 
statute - a class four felony.  Even with all the evidence, photos and 
witnesses of you being bound in that shed, kidnapping will be hard to 
prove. And without actual...penetration, attempted rape is 'iffy'. 
Confinement is a given, and with the public statements they made, a hate 
crime will be a slam-dunk. So, a hate crime is the way to get...those 
fuckers." Garin sighed and shook his head. "And, I've been assured that 
there's no wiggle room on that. Boring and Cortez will go down."
 
"Wow, you really have been researching this. Very impressive." Jeremy's 
curiosity was aroused by Garin's knowledge of the incident, but he 
decided not to push it - at this point.
 
"Some of this is public knowledge if you know how to dig for it. I 
understand maximum time in Illinois for a class four felony is three years 
plus community service for the first offense. Since no physical harm was 
inflicted, their attorney could probably deal for maybe a year in prison 
and a couple hundred hours of community service."
 
"Seems kinda light but I understand your point about wanting to keep it 
quiet. I was hoping to send a stronger message." Jeremy put a smirk on 
his face and added, "Perhaps they can be someone's bitch boys in the 
hoosegow."
 
"With TLC, of course." Garin shrugged and added, "Couldn't happen to 
nicer guys. Seriously, it will send them a very strong message."
 
"I just don't want those shits to show up on my doorstep some night," 
Jeremy said almost in a mumble. "I know they're out on bail."
 
"Already thought about that. Our lawyer could suggest to the prosecution 
that the guys be forced to wear electronic monitoring devices now and 
for a number of years after they get out of prison. You know, like Martha 
Stewart. If they even thought about getting near you, bells and whistles 
would go off." 
 
"That would be sweet," Jeremy replied without emotion. "Someone 
mentioned it's Max Boring's dad who insisted on the not guilty plea. 
Cortez's family is pretty poor so Max's lawyer is defending both of those 
turkeys."
 
"I was told about Mr. Boring's feelings. A friend of mine has offered to 
go over to Boring's hardware store and apply a little pressure. He's pretty 
sure he can change daddy's mind."
 
"If he's anything like his son...good luck," Jeremy replied while he shook 
his head.
 
"My friend can be very persuasive and we've got some leverage. Boring's 
store has a very substantial gay and lesbian clientele and the father needs 
to understand that the gay community stands together in Chicago. By the 
time my friend points out that Boring would be out of business by the end 
of the year, I think there will be a change of heart." 
 
"If Mr. Boring does that, I'd be very happy." Jeremy was aware that 
Garin had many contacts in the Chicago area and trusted his boss 
completely. 
 
The men turned onto the front walk of the Mart and passed the first of 
the large busts of Chicago merchandisers that lined the front of the 
massive building. Jeremy admired the view as he looked south. The 
green-cast water partially framed the dramatic high-rise architecture that 
lined the banks of the Chicago River.
 
"Listen, why don't you go to the bank and meet me at the Starbuck's in 
here," Garin said as they entered one of the front doors. "I'll get started 
on this project and make a few calls while you do your banking."
 
"Double espresso cappuccino, please." Jeremy winked and added, "Give 
me a few minutes and I'll join you."
 
"You're an expensive date."
 
"I've had good teachers and role models. See ya in a sec." 
 
Jeremy trotted ahead and went into the bank branch off the building 
lobby to conduct his business. He walked over to an empty standup 
counter and took the envelopes out of his backpack. No one seemed to 
be paying any attention to him and he tore open the envelopes and re-
arranged the bills for the drop. Jeremy rapidly filled out a deposit slip, 
verified the amount and turned to find a free teller. Fortunately, late 
afternoon activity was very light and the transaction only took a few 
minutes. He smiled when he reviewed the computer receipt and his very 
healthy new balance; a balance that would grow larger when the police 
returned his $200.00 impounded for evidence. 'Maybe I should get some 
advice from Garin about investing this money,' he thought as he exited the 
bank.
 
It appeared that he and Garin were the only people in the Mart interested 
in coffee at this hour. He immediately spotted Garin, talking on his cell, 
seated in a corner surrounded by empty tables and chairs.
 
"Guess everyone is in a hurry to rush home without stopping by for coffee 
at this hour," Jeremy said as he sat down. 
 
"Yes, this is definitely a morning place." Garin flipped his cell phone 
closed and slid it into his pants pocket. "At 8:00 a.m., you'd have to fight 
off a long line to get your caffeine fix. Good news. I got in touch with our 
lawyer and also my friend. Everything's set and we'll just let our plan take 
its course."
 
"Good. I feel better already." Jeremy set down his backpack and 
carefully took off the paper cup's lid. He savored the aroma from the 
cappuccino and brought the cup to his lips. He was careful not to get his 
nose in the froth of the steamed milk. He had learned that lesson already. 
"You mentioned that you also wanted to discuss some other things?"
 
"Yes. I'm ready to move you into doing some private parties...if you feel 
up to it."
 
"The only time I have any problems is when I'm by myself. School, 
Bally's and the Barecats keep me from thinking too much about recent 
events. And I've got a few modeling gigs coming up soon."
 
"As far as the show goes, I'm really pleased at your dance solos and the 
way you fit in with the cast. In fact, you're really making quite a name for 
yourself. The word's gotten around that we have this hot model stud and 
the booking agent is getting frequent requests for you."
 
"I don't know about the stud part - you'll have to ask Charlie," Jeremy 
said with a snicker. "But I'll soon be doing some magazine fashion layouts 
for the fall season and an underwear layout for the UnderGear website."
 
"Hey, it worked for Marky Mark Wahlberg in his Calvin's years ago. 
Congratulations."
 
"Garin, I just want to support myself, get through college, find a decent 
job afterwards and keep my other-half happy." Jeremy rolled his eyes 
and took another sip from his cup. "And I'm not getting any complaints in 
the last category."
 
"Except for noticing Charlie walking around with a shit-eating grin, I'll 
take your word for it. Are all the modeling shoots in Chicago?"
 
"Everything except for the underwear gig. "I've got to go to New York 
next month: it's early in June...the day after I graduate. Scheduled to fly 
out on Monday and return Wednesday evening."
 
"Good. Starting next week, plan on some extra rehearsal time at the club 
so the dance coach can teach you the routines for the private parties. I'll 
also get Charlie lined up so you can learn the two-man dances with him. 
It's a whole different style of bumps and grinds when you're performing in 
front of a small group in someone's home."
 
"I'm finding out what you meant when you said 'life's a grind'. It's all how 
you swing it," Jeremy replied.
 
"Buddy, you're swinging it pretty well...and I mean the 'life' part. 
However, based on the audiences' reactions, everything else is swinging 
pretty well too. By the way, if there are any contracts that need your 
signature, let me have our lawyer look them over first. June's a great 
photographer but you need someone independent to check any legal 
documents."
 
*****
 
Naomi had invited Jeremy to a celebratory brunch at the North Pond 
restaurant in Lincoln Park immediately before the high school graduation 
ceremony. This was in lieu of the post-graduation dinner because he 
would be working. Jeremy's antenna went on alert when his sister 
casually mentioned that an intern she worked with at Children's Hospital 
was also coming.
 
"Sis, why's this newbie doctor coming? Excuse me for reading between 
the lines, but is there something going on that we should discuss?" Jeremy 
remembered Naomi had mentioned going out with someone with whom 
she worked at the hospital - but she'd said nothing more than that.
 
"Tom Goldsmith and I have been dating off and on for a while. It's just 
gotten a little more serious this past month."
 
"A little more serious?"
 
"Serious enough that I want the two of you to meet. It's important to me 
that you approve of Tom. He's only six years older and that's not a big 
deal. He's going to be a pediatric resident at Children's Memorial in July 
and I've got two more years of nursing school to get my B.S.N. So, 
we're both going to be pretty busy for a while. This is just a first step."
 
"I'd love to meet any guy that really rings your chimes and brunch 
certainly is a good way to check him out," Jeremy said with a sly grin.
 
"I'll tell you he's adorable, bright and...well, that's all for now. It's just..."
 
"I got it: looking for a brother's seal of approval. Kinda like what we 
went through with Charlie. By the way, does he know that you've got a 
gay brother?"
 
"No. I figure that if you want to mention something, that's your 
prerogative. I will tell you that Tom's originally from Highland Park and 
pretty liberal about things. I'm meeting his parents sometime next month 
for dinner."
 
Brunch at the North Pond went very well. The two men in Naomi's life 
liked each other immediately and Jeremy did mention his orientation. 
There was not a moment of hesitation in Tom Goldsmith's demeanor 
when he said he had been around gay men for quite a while and that 
included some gay friends in medical school. He smiled when Jeremy 
mentioned his partner Charlie and suggested that the foursome should get 
together very soon.
 
Later, when Jeremy received his diploma, he knew he was ready to 
move on. Robert Stein - Bobby - was his life friend and he supposed that 
the others in his core group of friends would continue to be in the picture 
off and on for many years. Charlie was his anchor and Zach still filled the 
important role of big brother. In fact, aside from the free membership that 
he could now easily afford, Zach was now the only reason he still worked 
at Bally's. 
 
*****
 
Monday, less than 24 hours after receiving his diploma, Jeremy boarded 
the Blue Line train in the Loop for the 45 minute trip to O'Hare 
International and his flight - his first flight anywhere - to New York. 
Charlie had finished his spring exams and decided to be Jeremy's escort 
and tour guide to the airport. He wanted to show his lover the most 
economical mode of ground transportation and pointers about getting to, 
and taking a flight from, America's second-busiest aviation hub. At $2.00 
per head, the train was cheaper and much faster than driving on the 
constantly clogged expressway or paying a hefty forty bucks for a cab.
 
Charlie had suggested Jeremy travel light and lent him a small suitcase to 
hold the basic necessities. In that most of the time in New York would be 
spent in a studio wearing UnderGear's latest line of underwear, it was 
decided to only pack a couple of pair of jeans, socks, a few fitted tees, a 
black polo shirt, gym shorts for lounging around, Jeremy's black Doc 
Martens and toiletries. For books and a few documents associated with 
the job, Jeremy lugged along his backpack. He was very careful not to 
pack anything that was considered dangerous - hair gels, mouthwash and 
sharp objects.
 
At O'Hare, Jeremy was given a quick tour around the American Airlines 
terminal and a briefing by Charlie before the newbie traveler checked in 
at the ticket counter. They gripped each other in a firm handshake for a 
quick goodbye when it was time for Jeremy to get in line for the security 
checkpoint before entering the gates concourse. By the time he had been 
herded on board and figured out the seat configuration, Jeremy felt like a 
seasoned pro, tired of it all. 
 
The Chicago photographer, June Stillman, who had now taken on the 
additional job of being his modeling advisor and mother-protector, 
arranged for him to be met at La Guardia. A beautiful, 'lipstick' lesbian 
model friend of hers was assigned to be the official chaperone for Jeremy 
during his three-day visit. Aside from the taxi rides, a room in the small, 
luxury Mercer Hotel, the SoHo photography studio and some restaurants 
in the Village, he wouldn't get much of a chance to explore the city. 
 
By the time their cab arrived at the hotel, Jeremy decided that he was a 
little weary from his first plane trip and begged off dinner. He was 
checked in at the front desk by a woman who could have been a model 
in the latest Sports Illustrated swimsuit issue and then was shown to the 
room by a hunky bellman. 'Must be one of those places where all the 
staff are really actors in disguise,' he decided as he gave the guy five 
dollars as a tip. The bellman had spent a lot of time explaining all the 
features of the hotel and sold Jeremy on the idea of ordering room 
service. 'Heck, I've got a per diem allowance to use. It's just tough to 
spend it on a $15.00 burger.'
 
He phoned Charlie to let him know about his maiden air voyage and 
joked he wasn't part of Manhattan 'road kill'...yet. Jeremy promised to 
call again the next evening and settled in for a movie on HBO. One of the 
amenities of the hotel was a complimentary access to a nearby Crunch 
Gym and Jeremy decided he wanted to take advantage it for an early-
morning workout the following day. 'It wouldn't hurt to pump up a little 
bit for the camera,' he thought as he arranged for a 7:00 a.m. wake-up 
call. 'I'm not due at the studio until 10:00 a.m.' 
 
A ringing of the room telephone announced the new day and Jeremy 
immediately answered it. An electronic voice pleasantly wished him a 
"good morning" and recited the time along with the New York weather 
forecast. He eased out of the king bed - a luxury he wasn't used to - and 
got into his clothes from yesterday. Jeremy used a hotel laundry bag to 
lug his makeshift gear, change of clothes and toiletries around the corner 
to the gym.
 
An older man at the Crunch reception desk checked the hotel card, 
issued a towel and brusquely described the facilities without showing any 
emotion before pointing in the general direction of the locker room. 'Toto, 
you're not in Chicago any more,' Jeremy thought as he worked his way 
back to the men's locker area. It was barely 7:30 a.m. and the gym was 
very busy. He felt the pace of the people working out - mostly men - was 
at a more determined, aggressive level than what he was used to. He also 
noted the equipment was very new and the décor was more current than 
the Bally's back home.
 
The large locker room had several bays of changing areas and he found a 
vacant locker conveniently located in the middle of the room. The guys he 
saw appeared to be mostly young executive types and he smiled at 
himself as he felt more than one pair of eyes linger on him for a few extra 
moments. He organized his locker with the toiletries, hung up his clean 
clothes, quickly changed into his shorts and secured the door with the 
lock he had used for the suitcase. One handsome guy smiled and nodded 
when Jeremy walked out to the gym. 'Guess this place must be have a 
gay following,' he decided. 'But, then, what decent gym doesn't?'
 
As he had done many times, Jeremy went through a series of hand weight 
exercises and used a few machines to exercise his upper body. When he 
was finishing his workout on the mat in a serious attack on his abs, 
someone's shadow fell on his face.
 
"Dude, you're really doing an effective job on your six-pack," came a 
friendly, low, male voice. "Sorry to invade your space...just had to say 
'hi'. I'm Kent. Your wet t-shirt really clings."
 
"Morning, Kent. I'm Jer." Jeremy's curiosity was piqued and he decided 
to sit up for a better look. Standing above him was a handsome young 
man with a trim body. Kent's dark hair was a contrast to the light 
complexion and blue eyes. "No coyness with this guy,' he judged. 'Is this 
a New York thing?'
 
"I'm usually here every other day but I don't recognize you," Kent said as 
he lowered himself to a squat position next to Jeremy. He extended his 
hand and Jeremy instinctively grabbed it for a brief shake, pointedly 
ignoring Kent's bulge in his shorts.
 
"That's because I'm visiting." Jeremy noted that Kent didn't release his 
hand right away. It felt warm and strong. "In from Chicago for work and 
I return tomorrow."
 
"Welcome, then, to the Big Apple. You're a nice addition to the scenery."
 
"Aw, shucks, Kent. I bet you say that to all the guys," Jeremy replied 
with a laugh. 'Hmmm. I can only imagine where this is heading,' he 
thought. 'I think we both verified what's on his mind.'
 
"Only the cute ones." He sat down on the mat and allowed his leg to rest 
next to Jeremy's arm. Kent pressed slightly until his leg hair brushed 
against Jeremy's arm hair.
 
"You're pretty cute, yourself." Jeremy decided to play with the guy and 
see if he could navigate in these Manhattan, shark-infested waters.
 
"Score one for the visitor from Chicago. By the way, what kind of work 
do you do?"
 
"I'm getting paid to pose in underwear," Jeremy said with an impish shrug. 
"Actually, I'm doing a photo shoot for a company's website. They make, 
among other things, briefs and stuff like that."
 
"Explains why heads turned when you were walking around the gym. I'm 
sure you're very well qualified to do your posing." Kent winked and 
continued, "Listen, if you're about finished, why don't we clean up and I'll 
treat you to some breakfast. There's a neat café around the corner in the 
Mercer Hotel."
 
"That's where I'm staying. It's cool...only..."
 
"Only, what?" Kent pressed his leg a little harder and casually moved it 
up and down against Jeremy's arm. "You wanna skip breakfast and go 
on to the main event?"
 
"In your dreams. I'm not interested in anything else except a little 
conversation and maybe a bagel. I've got a boyfriend at home."
 
"Jer, the boyfriend is 800 miles away and I usually get my way. Especially 
when the guy is as tasty as you are." Kent moved his hand down and 
rested it on Jeremy's hand. "Do you know who I am?"
 
"A handsome man who's on the make with someone not available." 
Jeremy looked sternly into Kent's eyes, pulled his hand away and rotated 
around to a sitting position. "Who are you that I'm suppose to know?" He 
briefly studied this aggressive stud and decided he didn't have a clue as to 
Kent's identity. "Other than being a walking fuck machine," he added with 
a smile.
 
"You really don't know?" Kent feigned surprise and continued, "I'm on 
'Westport Wives'. I get most of America's women's panties in a wringer 
every afternoon during the week at 1:00 p.m. Noon in Chicago."
 
"Oh, the soap? I don't watch it but I'm sure you do that with the 
women...and probably several of the men. You're an interesting 
combination of a bright, good-looking guy who is atypically modest for 
an actor," Jeremy said with a laugh. "Probably need some counseling in 
developing self-esteem."
 
"Ha, looks like I've met my match." Kent pulled away and joined Jeremy 
laughing.
 
"I don't know about that but I am off the market."
 
"Not even if I dangled a romantic dinner tonight over in the West 
Village?"
 
"Even that and all the battery-operated toys in your apartment. I'm saving 
myself for my boyfriend...and that's no bullshit." Jeremy was having fun 
sparring with Kent but decided to bring this topic to a close.
 
"Here's the white flag. I get the point and reluctantly accept defeat. 
Truce?"
 
"Truce...absolutely." Jeremy impulsively took Kent's arm and squeezed it.
 
"Bullshit aside...since I can't get in your pants, why don't we get cleaned 
up and settle for just breakfast? Even if I can't dazzle you with my sexy 
looks, maybe we can amuse each other for a little harmless repartee 
while we eat."
 
"I'm up for harmless repartee. Let's go." Jeremy pulled himself up and 
waited for Kent to do the same.
 
"This guy you're with..."
 
"Charlie."
 
"Charlie must be a helluva man. You two have ruined my batting 
average." Kent lightly patted Jeremy on the shoulder in a friendly manner 
as they walked away from the mat area.
 
"He is. We're fairly new at this steady stuff but it's the real thing." Jeremy 
was intrigued as the show biz Kent was replaced by a much more 
likeable real guy.
 
"Then maybe we can all get together some time when I'm out your way 
this fall. My hometown is Glen Ellyn and the folks still live out there. I 
usually get out there a couple of times a year."
 
"Another Chicagoan...well, almost." Jeremy had never been to the 
Western suburb and only knew the name and its reputation as a mostly 
white community whose citizens strived hard to be considered 'upper-
middle class'.
 
"Close enough. After high school, I went through Northwestern's drama 
school and graduated a couple of years ago."
 
"Charlie will be a junior at Northwestern this fall." Jeremy moved slightly 
ahead when they entered the locker room entrance.
 
"Is he in a fraternity?"
 
"Phi Delt house. He's very active." Jeremy stopped at the bay and added, 
"My locker's here."
 
"I'm in the next one. By the way, I almost pulled an inexcusable faux pas."
 
"Faux pas? As in..."
 
"A Phi Delt never, ever goes after another Phi Delt's girl...or guy. I'm a 
Phi Delt alum from the same chapter as Charlie. Small world, isn't 
it?  See ya in the shower." 
 
"Okay." Jeremy chuckled as he removed the sneakers and damp clothes. 
He wrapped a towel around his waist, grabbed the mini-bottle of hotel 
shampoo and followed the corridor down to the wet area. He saw Kent 
in the middle of the shower room. There were a few guys in the tiled 
room and it didn't seem strange for Jeremy to choose the shower next to 
Kent.
 
"There you are. I'm not going to take long cuz I don't have to shave right 
now," Kent said. He discretely scanned Jeremy and added in a low 
voice, "Brother Charlie is a lucky man. What's his full name, by the way?"
 
"Charlie Barnett...and I'm the lucky man." Jeremy winked and unscrewed 
the shampoo bottle. "Oh, I don't have to shave, either." He had been told 
not to shave for a few days. The photographer wanted the opportunity to 
take a few sets with a casual stubble effect. There was to be a person at 
the studio who would groom the models for later in the day. The 
following day's schedule was primarily to do re-takes of any shots that 
were judged not satisfactory. 
 
The two men finished their shower, got dressed and went to the Mercer 
Hotel's café. Over coffee and scones, they traded more details of their 
lives.
 
"This is another first for me, Scones...who'd have thought?" Jeremy said 
with a laugh as he signed the check before Kent had a chance to grab it.
 
"And, clotted cream plus strawberry preserves - all very English. Only 
thing missing is a pot of tea. You're sure I can't pick up my share of the
 tab?"
 
"Naw. It's all paid for by a per diem allowance I have. How about a little 
more coffee?"
 
"If you've got time, I'd love one more cup. Especially since I'm with this 
stud from Chicago," Kent said, and established eye contact with the 
waiter for service. "I've really enjoyed getting to know you better, Sloan. 
The modeling will be a great way for you to pay the school bills. You can 
make some good bucks and the hours aren't bad."
 
"I haven't done it too often but the money is good. And as a fringe benefit 
on this shoot, I can keep any of the underwear I wear on the shoot. 
Actually, I have another part-time job you should probably know about if 
we're going to be friends," Jeremy said cautiously. "I'm also kinda in 
show business."
 
"Kinda...as in...?"
 
"You ever hear about a male dance show in Chicago called the Studz 
Barecats?"
 
"Sure. It's a great group. I saw the show last fall with a group of friends. 
Wait...you mean that you're also a dancer?"
 
"Thought you should know. I'm always upfront with people I want as 
friends."
 
"Well, I'm not some sort of Bible-thumping Baptist if that's what you're 
concerned about. I think it's rather cool that my new friend is a Barecat."
 
You might as well know the rest, Kent. It's where I met my partner. 
Charlie has been in the cast for about a year."
 
"Wow...something they don't include in Phi Delt initiation. I probably saw 
Charlie when I was there. What's his schtick? Um...role in the show?"
 
"He's the fireman with all the equipment," Jeremy said with chuckle.
 
"Sonofabitch, I do remember him and his...equipment. Brother Charlie is 
one sexy dude. You guys probably make a great couple, I expect."
 
"We'll all get together this fall and you'll see. I think Charlie will enjoy 
getting to know you. It'll be fun."
 
They finished their coffee and decided that working on a friendship would 
indeed be worthwhile. After Kent left the restaurant, Jeremy went 
upstairs to brush his teeth and grab his backpack. His official chaperone 
and car was due in ten minutes. Jeremy could hardly wait to tell Charlie 
about the meeting on the telephone that night...and did so in animated 
detail...glossing over the initial pick-up attempt.
 
The two-day underwear photo shoot went well - if the positive comments 
were any indication - and after some minor extra shots at the studio, 
Jeremy hustled directly to La Guardia for the return American shuttle late 
on Wednesday afternoon. He was thankful that he had been advised to 
pack and check out of the hotel before going to the studio for the final 
day of shooting. As the 737 approached cruising altitude, he thought over 
the final words from the New York photographer: "Kid, don't lose that 
innocence you have for the camera. I have several clients who can use 
you."
 
He smiled, closed his eyes and thought, 'Innocence...if he only knew.'
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TO BE CONTINUED
 

ジャック・スクライブ

 

いつもと同じ。18歳以下の人は読んじゃ駄目。

 

 

コメントは大歓迎だよ。 jack.scribe@gmail.com

 

 

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第十六章、色々な卒業

 

 

木曜に学校が終わると、クラブに寄ってチップの入った封筒を金庫から取り出して、近くのマーチャンダイス・マートにある銀行に預けるのが、ジェレミーの習慣になっていた。メモリアルデーの祝日が近づいていて、シカゴは一気に冬の終わりから夏になろうとしていた。“ビーチでスピードを穿く季節。”ベアキャッツのステージドアのベルを押すと、セキュリティカメラに手を振って、ドアが開けられるのを待ちながらそう思った。

 

 

「やあ、ジェア。」スピーカーからオフィスマネージャーの声がした。機械的なブザーの音で、ロックが開けられたのが分かる。ジェレミーはドアを開けると、ドレッシングルームに行って、自分の金庫からお金を取り出した。誰かが部屋に入って来た時、ちょうどジェレミーはお金を数えて、お札を整理したところだった。

 

 

「やあ、ジェレミー。元気かい?」

 

 

「ああ、ハイ、ギャリン。あなたがここにいるって思わなかった。」ジェレミーは封筒をバックパックに押し込むと、ボスの方に歩み寄った。「最終試験が今週、そして610日には卒業。」差し出された手を取ると、短く握手して続けた。「全て上手くいってます。」

 

 

「本当に?」ギャリンが眉を上げて聞いた。「真面目な話し、お母さんが亡くなって2週間もしないのに、あの馬鹿共に襲われて---本当に平気なのかい?」ギャリンがジェレミーの目を見詰めると、優しく彼の腕を撫でた。

 

 

「その…ほとんど上手くやってます。」ジェレミーが眉を顰めると、床を見下ろした。「ママが亡くなったのは突然だったけど、多分それで良かったんだって自分に言い聞かせてるんです---ママはしたいことも出来ない状態だったから。あのことに関しては、僕のクラスメートは本当に支えになってくれてます。すごくドラマチックにカムアウトしちゃったわけだけど、皆そんなこと気にしてないみたいだし。」ジェレミーはベアキャッツのレギュラーになって直ぐ、自分の性向についてギャリンに話していた。

 

 

「どうやら“ほとんど上手くいってる”っていうのが真実に近いみたいだね。」ギャリンが心配そうな顔をした。

 

 

「僕…時々一人で居る時に泣き出してしまうんです---何の前触れもなしに。それに、あの午後のことを思い出して、汗だくで夜中に目が覚めることもあるし。でも、それも少しずつよくなってきてます。ナオミも単に僕の姉さんっていうだけじゃなくて、親友みたいな存在でいてくれるし、校長先生に薦められたカウンセラーとも会って、それも助けになってます。」

 

 

「カウンセリングは続けたほうがいいね…助けになるよ。僕の両親が離婚して、ママが僕を引き取った時、僕もプロのカウンセリングを受けたことがある。父はもう僕と会う気がなくなったみたいで、それが僕を随分…落ち込ませたんだ。今の君より、もう少し若いころのことだよ。」

 

 

「きっとそのカウンセリングが良かったんですね、今こうしてそのことについて話せるんだから。夏の間はずっと、カウンセリングを受けるつもりでいます。学校がその費用を払ってくれてるし、僕、トンネルの先に光が見えてる気が

してるから。」

 

 

「その明かりが、向こうから来る電車のヘッドライトじゃないって、確かめた方がいいね。」ギャリンがニコッと笑って、直ぐにその笑顔を引っ込めた。「馬鹿げたジョークでごめん。」

 

 

「ジョークはスルーしました。僕のことを気に掛けてくれて感謝してます。今、気になってるのは、裁判で証言しなくちゃいけないってことなんです。そういう風に人目に晒されるのって嫌で。」

 

 

「分かるよ、完璧にね。マートの銀行に行くんなら、一緒に行っていいかな?歩きながら話せるし。裁判については少し考えがあるんだ。他に話したいこともあるし。」

 

 

「あなたのアドバイスにも、一緒に来てくれるって申し出にも、銀行にお金を持っていく間の用心棒になってくれるってことにも、反対なんてしませんよ。用意できました。」ジェレミーはギャリンにドレッシングルームから先に出るように合図すると、そう言って笑った。

 

 

明かりを消すと、ジェレミーは出口までバックステージを横切っていくギャリンに追いついて、素早くギャリンの前に出ると、ステージドアの横棒を力強く押してドアを開け、ボスのために開いたドアを支えた。そのままハバード通りに出ると、マーチャント・マートの方角に向かって西に曲がる。

 

 

「チップの金額はどう?」ギャリンが聞いた。「君が参加するようになってから、あまり話すチャンスがなかったけど、観客が君のダンスの間、すごく興奮してるのには気がついてるんだ。」

 

 

「チップはすごくいいです。このお金で必要な経費は全部払えるし、年取った時のために貯金も出来そうです。」

 

 

「年取った時?それって…30歳になった時?」ギャリンがクスクス笑った。

 

 

「ああもう、分かるでしょ。多分35歳くらいですよ。」ジェレミーが舌を出すと続けた。「これって最高の仕事だし、僕にこんな機会を与えてくれて本当に感謝してます。辞めろって言われない限り、少なくとも大学に通う間は…続けるつもりでいます。素晴らしい友達に巡り合うっていう、ボーナスもあったし。」

 

 

「例えばチャーリー・バーネットとか?詮索するつもりはないよ、分かってると思うけど。」

 

 

「あなたの知らないことは何もないんですね?」ウェルス通りに向かって南に曲がると、ジェレミーが鼻を鳴らした。「僕たち、いわゆる、その…付き合ってるんです…真剣に。」

 

 

「君に言った通り、僕は、そっち側でプレイしたい人に何の偏見もないよ。それにチャーリーはいい奴だしね…大事にしたらいい。君たち二人はお似合いだよ。ああ、それからさっきドレッシングルームで話してたことだけど、あの件に関して、全てをあんまり公にしないで解決できる方法があると思うんだ。」

 

 

「どんな助けでも感謝します。」キンジー通りを横切る前に立ち止まると、ジェレミーはギャリンを見た。去年の12月に初めてディナーして以来、ジェレミーのボスに対する憧れと尊敬は増すばかりだった。